day 19.........^^

em......just back from work..em..ntg special happen today..haha..ok la..me n her de relationship..can play can joke n can bite each other..the bite just she bite me nia la..haha..em..but early morning work that time hor..she suddenly duwan talk to me..duwan choi me..haiz..i really sad lo..is my fault..cause..i pass the item ask her to put back..then i go serve other customer..then after serve i back to her..see she still haven finish put back..then i ma wan help lo..then haiz..duno wat happen..she angry le..haiz..really sad lo..but awhile later she come chill me up..hehe..then i also ntg..smile wit her..play wit her..hehe..ntg le..lolx.x..really scare she duwan choi me lo..scare scare..k la..stop here sin..macam ntg write le..haha..oya..got ar..is...i will always waiting...

day 18...

hehe..ntg le..i`m ok le..today afternoon go find her n chat..then ok le..she strees cause family problem..so chat awhile..can smile le..hehe..but yday really let me worry lo..so now ok la..hehe..now i just back from yam cha nia..chit chat wit friend..ask ask each other de life..haha..macam ni lo..then now..see pol win online..ngam ngam i ma ask ask why so late only back home ar..like last time i ask..swt..wat happen to him..answer me..why i questioning it..?? what for....walao..wtf..i duno wat happen to him..ask like this kena scold..walaoeh..i ask like this..just caring each other nia ma..izit caring also cannot..haiz..my mood is damn ok de..he answer me like this..f wei..i already sad for so many day le..n my mood start ok back jor..now..walao..i really tot i`m very extra la..sorry ya..for those reader that read my blog..i already try to write my blog wit those happy thing le..but..really sorry la..my life nowadays keep happen those sadness de things..sorry..

day 17..in the morning..

i`m back..i still the same..very sad..since yday start..i duno wat is happen le..she suddenly different..that day on phone she not like this de..i duno why..early morning she reply my msg..she say..
my best friend will always be my jiemei..there is no special friend..u r just my friend k i will treat you the same like my other friend..i duwan gid you think got hope cause i reall wont couple any1..even couple also it hardly will be you..i tell you all this cause i duwan give you think still got hope..
haiz...i really duno wat to do le..that day on phone she didt told me like this de..now totally different..
haiz..i really no more mood le..

day 17..

em..ntg to write..sorry..

day 16..

now is 2.35am..just back from yam cha nia..lol..late again..next time must early abit le..cant always so late home..walao..today working ar..sien ar..very less ppl again..bored lo..haha..but i happy ar..cause my mood good lo..haha..lol..but..i did le some mistake...make cynthia angry me.. T___T but after awhile..we ok back le..hehe..aiyo..i promise her again..haha..i really promise her alot of things lo..but nvm la..i like it..haha..haiz..tomoro off..duno wan do wat..plan for going walk hill already cancel..bored..ok la..stop here 1st..wanna go sleep le..tired lo..in the end..still got smtg wanna say..to the 1 i love..i will nvr give up..n i will always waiting..

day 15..almost 3am le..

haiz..cant sleep..duno why..my brain stuck..sot le..hahahahaha..aiyo..forget you all my moomoo car..nice ma..??
for me..moomoo is very nice..moomoo accompany me so long le..almost 2 years le..moomoo is the best for me..muack..k la..i wan go sleep le..em..moomoo take picture wit model will be update soon...

day 14...

em..today duno wan write wat..haha..my mood ok le after yday..lolx.x...today working really sien lo..really is monday..very less ppl lo..really can crazy ar..now also ntg do..=.=..wat a monday..swt..sien ar..stop here la..go play game..listen song..then go sleep le..haha..

day 13...

now is 2am..just back from snooker nia..sorry ya cynthia..i back late le..haha..finally..just now i ask my ex see my blog le..i told my ex le..i damn really happy..smtg in my heart finally say out le..but you know la..i still worry her..she still like a baby for me..haha..haiz..ok la..i promise her le..duwan write sad things le..em..but i still will write..cynthia..hope you dun angry me..just today..the last i will write le..i promise..cynthia..i really thanks you alot..really thanks alot..thanks alot for the pass..you give me feel very happy..save..in love..n sad also..hehe..sad is most less de la..hehe..now we break le..still can be friend..i really happy..but sumtimes i also will feel very sad la..cause you ask other ppl accompany you..also didt ask me..sorry ya..i just wan say out nia..hope you understand..sorry ya..for the pass 12 day after we break..i really no mood to play..smile..sorry also ya..all also i act de..really sorry..now i ok le..i promise you le..i will stay happy..lolx.x..i promise you so many things lo..charm la..haha..n i hope you also remember wat you promise me o..dun forget har..haha..i still the same lagi..very cheong hei..XD..but i care ma..i care i only say alot nia..hope you dun angry o..hehe..remember wat i told you o..remember o..n..remember o..must always smile..hehe..1 more thing..i really hope you will remember this name (BiiBii)..wat the name means..i know you now no mood to couple le..but i really hope..you will come back to me again..i promise..no more same mistake le..last time i say le..i wont so easy give up de o..n 1 more thing i wan to let you n everyone know..in mylife..till now la..this girl..cynthia teh xiao tying..you BiiBii..is the 1 i really love..is the 1 can make me change mylife..n is the 1 can make me feel so lost after break..cynthia..you really prefect for me..you is the best for me..haiz..i duno i still got the chance or not..i really hope..we can couple back nia..ok la..just this i wanna write nia..i wanna let you know..i will always waiting you n you really perfect for me..ok le la..dun say le..i scare later she angry me..XD..she angry me har..i really charm le lo..hehe..anyway..to all whose read my blog..i duno i`m a good bf for her or not..i`m loyal or not..i think not le ba..i duno how your all think bout me..nvm la..i just wan tell you all..regret is too late le..the chance is very less le..so..remember..think 1st b4 do..n remember wat you promise ppl..dun break the promise..k la..stop here 1st..will be update my happy news soon..see ya

day 12...

now 4am..just back from pub nia..haha..didt drunk..cause just drink little bit nia..haiz..today working..so damn happy lo..cause my ex got play wit me..joke wit me..haha...haiz..but..duno why..after almost wan back le that time..she look very hate me le..haiz..working time..she got see take my phone n see..but i duno she got see my msg inbox or not..but i got feel that she got see la..cause after see she look hate me le..haiz..then i see her keep on phone wit ppl..then my mood going down n down n down..haiz..i duno wan how..i hope she will know..i didt have feel wit the girl that like me de..she msg me..then i just reply nia..even she ask me..she have chance or not..i also reply..you wait la..i reply like this..didt means i wil give her a chance...haiz..i really cant forget my ex la..she really give me the feel..she really cant control me..control me for goin out late..control me yam cha la..cannot go clubbing la..haiz..now i start going out late le..yam cha la..go club la..i wan she to control me la..i cant control me by myself..haiz..tired le..wanna go sleep le..haiz..hope she know..i still waiting for her..cynthia teh xiao tying..i miss you..i really love you..i still waiting for you..i really hope you give me a chance..

day 11 le..

just came back from yam cha..now is 1am..haha..today stay at house do ntg..=.=..sleep sleep face pc..then went out yam cha..haiz..my mood is going up n down..i starting to change back to last time de me le..nite walker..everynite also went out..haiz..i duno how is her le..i duno she still will care of me or not le..i really duno le..i starting become lala le..nowadays the girl that falling wit me de..keep ask me..will she got chance..can give her a chance..haiz..i very fan ar..i just break..i still cant let got my ex..now got other girl like me le..but i really didt have feel..i duwan hurt anyone..sumtimes..i feel single veeery freedom..but sumtimes will very lonely..haiz..how..i still love my ex..but the other girl keep ask me give her a chance..how how..i really headache la..i didt think to couple wit her..if i couple wit her..my mind still got my ex..she will get hurt..n i will feel sorry wit my ex..but if i didt give her a chance..she also will hurt..n i also will hurt my ex..cause i didt give my ex enjoy her life..haiz..love really make me sick la..i nvr tot i will like this..haiz..help me ar..i really duno wan to do wad le..for my ex..cynthia teh xiao tying..i still love you..if 1 day..i couple wit her..i still hope you wil wake me up..i really lost le..i really feel sorry wit you..cause i say i will wait for you..but i couple wit her..i really sorry..haiz..is hard to make a choose..there is always cant choose both..if i choose this..i will lost that..if i choose that..i will lost this..i really headache..i really duno how..BiiBii..if you still remember this name..hope you still remember me..i write this blog because of BiiBii..i wan let BiiBii know how was my life goes on..i not wan BiiBii regret..because BiiBii break wit me..i just wan BiiBii know..how much i love BiiBii..how i survive after break..BiiBii..i still love you..i still hope you will wake me up..

10 day le...

haha..now is 2am le..just come back from yam cha nia..just now go watch ppl play basketball..then go yam cha lo..now..cant sleep..today off..sleep almost whole day le..haha..today i really happy ler..cause she got msn wit me..haha..she saw my msg in msn..then she ask me..remember i promise her cannot emo lo..haha..then..she also got sms me ler..wahaha..really happy lo..she say..( pol win say you tomoro so song oh..wad thing so song but nvr share wit me oh..? )..haha..i really forget le..tomoro i really duno got wat to do ler..then i ask my friend wat i need to do tomoro..haha..i really stupid lo..haha..after my friend told me..cheh..is next friday la..ppl ajak go poppy..still thinking wanna go or not..but i really didt have the feel for going club le..after couple wit her..i really didt have the feel le..i`m really thanks her..haiz..now she leave me le..really sad..i`m really love her..really miss her..haiz..lolx.x..just now my friend to me they 11pm smtg only close shop..walao..11pm smtg..waa..because of stupid customer irritating..if today i work..sure i shout de..duno wat time le mer..ppl need go back home n rest de ler..idiot..haha..stop here sin la..i really happy today..but happy not like last time la..haiz..cynthia teh xiao tying..i love you..i still love you..i still waiting for you..

day 9..earlier morning 3am

now is 3am..i still cant sleep..haiz..i know she just only go to bed nia..i saw she offline at 2:30am..change her msn message at 2:07am..haiz..i so sad la..i saw her msn msg write..she let -Today Gib Many Ppl Say Me Lie Them Many Times Le-...i read le..i wanna ask her why..but i scare she dun like me ask..cause i not her bf..i wan to care for her..i scare she dun like also..haiz.. cant ask her go sleep early..i not her bf le..cant so care for her..but my mind n heart still care..really hard la..cant take action for care her le..haiz..i really sad la..i not cant let her go..is i worry bout her after i not around her..i scare she get hurt..is really hard to say wat`s the feel la..haiz..hope she will give me a chance la..cynthia teh xiao tying i love you..k la..i really tired le..

day 9 is coming le..

haiz..now is 11pm..today didt went out le..very tired le..already keep out yam cha..enjoy..lepak..for 8 day le..today rest..then tomoro continue again..i really cant stay at house..if i stay at house..sure i keep thinking de..my mood now ok lo..still can joke here joke there..but..my mind still will suddenly think bout her de..haiz..8 day le..my heart still cant let her go..really hate myself ar..why..haiz..is really hard live without her..i really lost..i wan her to control me back..she cant control me for going out at nite..which girl i chat wit..sms wit..i really wan she control me..i very miss the feel..i miss the feel that she hug me..kiss me..talk wit me..joke wit me..play wit me..i really miss her..haiz..already so many day le..i still the same..i really duno when i will going crazy..not i duwan let her go..is i really hard to let her go..i trying to let her go also..but my mind cant..haiz..hope she know that i still very love her..very miss her..still hope her come back wit me..cynthia teh xiao tying i love you..i still waiting you..

day 8..not change..still the same

now is 1:30am..i just came back from subang nia..sien..cant sleep la..haiz..8 day le..i still cant sleep..still thinking of her..kesian la..nowadays i summore suffer..family problem..i heard my dad not going work start next year le..i now very fan le..i duwan show them i feel sad..cause my dad now already headache le..summore ii show them..they more headache..haiz..need to keep it myself..suffer la..hehe..today working i feel so happy lo..cause she got chat wit me in msg..just few word only la..but i still so happy..tomoro she off again..cant see her..my mind really cant stop thinking of her..then thursday n friday i off lagi..kesian..4 day cant meet her..i really miss her..even thought she not my gf anymore..but i still love her so much..nowadays my mood ok abit le..just abit only..cause she got talk wit me..hehe..haiz..but i still cant control my mind la..like today..when i reach usj 19 de city mall..not digitall mall le..is city mall..i reach there early..i go walk around lo..i pass by last time how me n her meet de place..falling in love de place..that place really got so much history..after pass by there...my mood going down n down le..totally lost le..keep thinking of her only..i really miss her la..really love her..if she ask me to wait..i really dun mind to wait for her..i really hope she come back to me..haiz..now my mood going down again le..everynite..same..keep think of her..i really wan to hug her n tell her i really love her..haiz..k la..i no mood wan write le..tomoro only update la..cynthia teh xiao tying i love you..will you come back to me..pls..give me a chance..remember this place..how we start..how we meet..

day 7 coming le :C

haiz..now is 10:35pm...i sit infront pc..like idiot..mind still very lost..heart still very sad..mood still very down..haiz..i really duno wan do wat le..today working..she got talk to me..joke wit me..but all also friend de feel..not like last time..bite me la..geli me la..suddenly come n hug me la..i really cant forget it..haiz..almost 1 week le..wat happen to me..i last time also not like this de..after few day..ntg le..but now wat happen to me..wat happen..why i really hard to let her go..haiz..headache la..she bring me in her life..throw me at outside..stop me for try..i really hard to survive la..haiz..yday..got a girl told me..she last time got feel wit me..i tot last time only..but today..she told me..she got feel wit me..haiz..headache la..i got wat so special..why other girl go feel wit me..why she cant..why she wan leave me..why..why..HEADACHE LA..duwan think le la..go out enjoy my life..

day 6 le..

wake up in the morning..still the same..saw my hp..no msg..she no msg me le..no more le..yday really tired..whole day work face wit her..i saw her moody..last time..i will chill her up de..but..yday..i duno wan do wat..we really look like stranger..after working..i ask her for little talk..i ask her..we still friend rite..why we very less talk to each other de..she told me..yap..we still friend..em..we lees talking also good la..walao..i cant lo..i really hard lo..friend is friend ma..i got told her le..now we is friend.. dun think other..but..she like to think..haiz..i headache la..my headache coming back le..after talk..i really no mood le..but i didt show ppl my mood..i act happy..haiz..now i lagi headache..another girl told me she got feel wit me last time..now she got bf le..but her bf very crazy..she wan break..then she ask me..can give her a chance..walao..i really headche lo..i meet her not more that 5 times..if i not forgotten..she got feel wit me..swt..headache la..my ownself haven settle..now come 1 more lagi..i still very miss cynthia teh xiao tying..i really hard to forget her..really hard to let her go..how tell me la..is very suffer la..i duno wan sad or happy also..my life really emo now..

day 6 le..

day 5 le..haiz..

just came back from subang nia..haiz..tot can straight away sleep de..but cant..still the same..still so miss her..now 5 o`clock le..haiz..5 day cant sleep le..i`m really lost..haiz..just now got msg her..i got ask her..can let me try to chase you back..but haiz..sad answer..her reply me..dun try la..i no feel wit you le..pls duwan try..n duwan wait for me..n if you dun let me go..i not friend wit you also..haiz..i saw le..totally no more mood..but i keep ask her let me try..then she let me try..n she still say..i let you try..didt means i will accept you..anyway..i really happy she let me try..better than ntg..i still hope she can..if didt try how will know the answer ler..she say..she got try so many times b4 le..but she try de is different ppl..maybe i not same..rite..maybe me n her will back to couple ler..then..hour later..she ask me dun try la..i think dun try la..i duwan you try..i duwan hurt you again..haiz..i dun mind she hurt me again..i really dun mind..then i reply her..dun think le..now we still friend..just let me try..if really cant..i will silent n go le..k..now very late le..go ooi ooi la..tomoro still work lagi..hehe..i reply this..haiz..love this kind of things really hard to say de..not everytime also same de..but..haiz..she keep duwan let me try..why..she told me she will cry..cause she hurt me..if she cry..sad..cause i hurt..izit means she care..haiz..i really duno la..i dun mind to wait..i wan try..why cant..tomoro still need to face her again..duno how is my feel again..moody..haiz..today face her..really no mood..i dun even dare to see her face..everytime i see only..i keep think back..how we smile wit each other last time..haiz..today saw her alone go carefour buy coke n food..last time is i buy for her de..now..haiz..i`m really sad la..i really cant see it anymore..i really stupid la..why i so stupid on that day..why i do that..i really hate myself la..i really worry bout her la..she last time let so many boy cheat le..that`s why i very worry bout her..i really duwan she sad..hurt again..haiz..i really fan la...cynthia teh xiao tying..i really love you..i really worry bout you..i really miss you..i really hope you can come back to me..just let me try..i dun mind you hurt me..i dun mind to wait..i just wan you give me try..i wan waste my time on you..cause i give other girl a chance..i love you cynthia teh xiao tying..hope you will come back to me..i`m waiting..i love you

day 4th coming le...haiz..

just back from work..haiz..still same..still very sad..today face her whole day..i really happy..cause i can see her..but..i`m sad also..cause last time we joke wit each other..play wit each other..then she pun always bite me..sayang me..but..haiz..today different le..i`m really afraid to stand infront of her..even beside also..i duno why..my mind very blur..i scare i will go n hug her..we already not a couple so cant do like that..that`s why i scare..i scare i cant control myself..haiz..today she got ask me..wat happen when i stand there n emo..i really wan to told her..i`m very sad..can you dun leave me..can we start again..but no..i didt..i tell her ntg ar..cause i duwan she know that because of her i sad..if she know..she will think back again..today saw her buy a cup of maggi a cup of soya..last time is i buy for her n cook the maggi for her de..but today no le..everything she do it herself..when i saw she drinking soya..i thik back..last time she sure give me drink abit de..when i saw her cook the maggi cup..i think back..last time i do for her..i treat her like my baby..she really give me the feel that she need my protection..is really hard to say..is smtg like that..haiz..i really sad la..i really lost la..i really miss her..tell me how..is hard for me to let her go..i really wan ask her..can you act duno me n let me chase you again..i really dun mind we start again..cause she really give me the feel that i need for forever...haiz..i really lost le..haiz..my hp nvr ring almost whole day le..it start silent silent n silent..every morning she will msg me..wake me up..but start 15th october..it end le..nite also..everynite also will msg me or call me..b4 sleep de..but..it also end le..3 day le..i be waiting n hoping she msg me baby i still love you...i not duwan to tell her n wait her to tell me..cause i duwan her cry again..think i do the stupid things again..i wan her be happy..haiz..i really headache la..my mood really down le..already 3 day i no mood le..do everything also no mood..i really wan to be koma whole of mylife..wont sad wont cry wont think this think that wont dream also..but i cant do it..it will make ppl around me worry bout me..n it also will make her scare again..haiz..GOD help me la..i really miss her..cynthia teh xiao tying..i really miss you..i really love you..i still waiting you come back to me..i promise you wont let you hurt..cry..sad again..pls..come back to me..i love you..

3rd day le..haiz..

haiz...now is almost 2 o`clock le..i still the same..still hope she will back to me..haiz..i just finish read all those history msg when me n her chat at msn..the 1st day we chat till the day we break..from 16th april till 13rd october..haiz..my mood going down again n down n down again..i really lost..1st time lost like this..she really perfect for me..she can control me..but after we break..i say i wan control myself..duwan out till late late..but i didt do it..today i out almost whole day..she didt control..i lost control..i really wan she come back to me..control me back..i out almost whole day..but i not happy at all..my mood was down..my smile was fake..i wan she care bout me..i`m a big baby..i`m easy to cry..i`m easy to get hurt..my heart really soft..but my love really strong..i`m very loyal..cynthia teh xiao tying..i hope you come back to me..i really hope..i know is hard to you..but can we try..try to start again..haiz..i really hard to let you go..you really give me the feel that i looking for..everytime i hug you..i feel like very safe..you let me feel very special..but now you go le..i feel like lost in darkness jungle..i`m very scare..when you love sum1 is hard..when you wan forget sum1 is more hard..i really duno how to forget you..i really duno..my mind n my heart cant let you go..sorry..stop here 1st..i cant continue write..my eyes is raining again..almost everytime i think back..i sure cry de..haiz..

morning of 2nd day

now is 11 morning..just came back form school..i going school for ask can do car wash activity or not..but..haha..CANT..SWT..stupid school..this morning i woke up..i reply her msg..then she reply..i very happy again..is hard to say how was i feel..but i wont happy like last time le..my phone wont full wit her msg le..everytime when i my hp ring..i very nervous..i hope she msg me..msg me..say..she still love me..i really hope..but after saw..nope..not that..my friend msg la..maxis msg la..haiz..my mood still the same..i still very miss her..haiz..later going out again..take car photo..haiz..so sien..so moody..i have to act ntg happen..now my hp wont ring le..haiz...sadness day..whose know..dun see i was happy..i just acting only..because i duwan she see me unhappy..i already trying to let her go..but i cant..my mind cant..my heart cant..i feel very lost..i really duno wan do wat..i already beg her come back wit to me..but she cant..she have no more feel..she already try 3 month to stay wit me..she told me this..when i heard it..i really sad..i not sad because she try to love me..i sad that she suffer..now i duwan she feel the same again..i have to..havo to let her go..help me..my mind n my heart cant let her go..i really love her..this is my 1st time i love sum1 like this..i love sum1 till i really lost..this my 1st time write blog because of her..haiz..those sum pic between me n her..i really love her..cynthia teh xiao tying..i waiting you come back to me..i really love you..

2nd day

now is 3 o`clock..i awake..i cant sleep..my mind still thinking her..i saw her reply me msg..i`m so happy..but i afraid to reply her..i duwan she know that i still very sad..i duno wat i wanna do..already 2nd le..i`m still very sad..i`m still hoping she come back to me..i really hope..friday i going to work n i going to meet her..i duno how to face wit her..i really wan told her i still love her..i still cant let her go..but i cant..i duwan she suffer again..she already suffer when wit me..so now..is my turn to suffer..because of her..i have to..because of her..i promise..haiz..my mood now is going down n down..i really miss her..my mind was very confuse..when i saw those pic between me n her..i really sad..i really miss her..i cant stop my mind..my mind keep think bout the pass..keep think bout how hard me n her to be a couple..already 4 month together le..in this 4 month..i change myself alot..i very less go out yam cha wit friend..i didt go clubbing..even my friend keep ask me..i really happy..cause she control me..i`m really thanks her..but now..she leave me le..i have to control myself also..i wan she know..i promise her..i will do..haiz..yday promise her will bring her go fun fair..watch dvd at her house..got eat curry fish hear wit her mommy de..but..haiz..things go wrong..i go cry like hell infront her house..her mommy come talk to me..bring me go talk to her..but..it still the same..end..i lost..i lost sum1 i really love..care..i lost her..after talk wit her..i went home..she still got msg me..i`m really happy..but just a normal msg only..no more sweetie msg..no more baby n biibii..no more zhuzhu..know why i call her BiiBii..BiiBii means -baobei is imortant baobei is important-..when start couple..i just cal her Bii nia..after i call her BiiBii..cause she is very important for me..my heart just for her..no more space for other girl..haiz...help me..i really sad..i really hope she back to me..i really miss her..i really wan to hug her..i really worry bout her now..i worry she let other boy cheat again..i really sad when she told me her pass story..i really care bout her..BiiBii..i still hope you come back to me..i will wait for you..i promise you i wont let you cry anymore..i love you cynthia teh xiao tying

1st day after break

today is my 1st day break wit her n is my 1st time i write blog..in my mind i still cant let her go..i really love her..but now end le..i cant ask her back..i cant do that..i cant force ppl to love me..i have no choice..i didt a very stupid things..is my mistake..i feel very sorry..now already pass so many hour le..but i still very sad..i still wan her come back to me..but our relationship already end..we now just like normal friend..i really duno how i wan to pass my day..is hard to forget sum1 you love..i really hard to let her go..i`m really suffer..i`m really regret..but no more use le..everything end le..i duno who i wan talk wit..i`m really suffer..i really duwan this happen..i wan her..i really wan she back..but i cant..i have to let her go..i wan she happy wit her life..she treat me very well when we together..she dun have feel wit me..she try her best..i know is hard..is really suffer..to love sum1 that you dun feel..because i wan her be happy..i have to let her go..but...my mind..i really cant stop it..help me..i scare she let other boy cheat again..i scare she feel sad..hurt..i really scare..wat should i do..i really duno..i really lost..i really duno wat to do le..i really hope she come back to me..care bout me..love me..i still waiting..i promise her..i wont hurt her again..wont make her scare..i promise..tying..i`m waiting you back to me..i really hope you back to me..i swear..i wont hurt you anymore..i love you cynthia teh xiao tying..i waiting you..